Fucked up and hit my dab pen too hard at work and now I’m fucking blitzed. Honestly don’t even know why I’m posting this probably cause I’m bored as shit and my job is really uneventful.

I was at a festival and one of the guys I had been hanging with gave me some acid. It didn’t do much for me because I had taken an insane amount the day before, but it was free acid so I took it. They looked like a tiny shard that had three layers consisting of yellow, white, and yellow. Each shard was an irregular shape, as if there was a tray of it and then it was broken up. They were smaller than my pinky nail. I wish I took a picture of it. And I know I should have tested it but I was just gobbling up mushrooms and acid that weekend. Tbh, the only layered pills I’ve seen are like extended release Mucinex and similar stuff. So, has anyone heard of something that would fit this description? Thank you!!!

So I was hanging out with some friends and we all took a couple tabs. We were standing outside having a beer and I suddenly started to feel sick. Now, I've taken LSD more than 100 times and I've used some of the stuff from the batch I had that night previously.

I told everyone I wasn't feeling well and started to walk into the house to lay down. When I got to the front door my vision went black, my whole body started to tingle, my muscles started to lock up, and I started hearing a high pitched ringing. I managed to get to the sofa and lay down, and started seeing a flower of life pattern in front of my eyes stretching out into infinity. I knew something was seriously wrong and asked my friends to call an ambulance.

While sitting there, my vision returned but I couldn't move my arms or articulate my fingers and my speech started to slur. When the EMTs arrived they looked at my eyes with a flashlight and immediately asked me if I had taken any drugs.

I told them no, because I could tell there was something wrong and I didn't want them to think I was a new user having a freak out. After a few minutes of questioning me they tried to get me to stand but my legs were shaking too much and I fell back onto the sofa. They decided to take me to the emergency room and got me into the ambulance.

Once at the hospital, the nurses came in, drew some blood, and gave me an IV. After about 5 minutes my speech stopped slurring and I could move my limbs properly. The tingling went away completely. I started asking the nurse why I was suddenly feeling better and she wasn't sure.

After a few more minutes, the doctor came in and asked if I was feeling better. I smiled and told him I was, and asked if he had figured out what was wrong with me.

I had started a new diet and exercise routine earlier that week, and that day I had run out of water at home. I live in Arizona where it's very dry, and the tap water isn't all that safe to drink in large quantities due to the amount of calcium and other minerals in it. Turns out I had severe dehydration and I didn't even realize it. I had never been dehydrated like that before and had no idea any of my symptoms would be from that.

The doctor told me it was OK for me to go home since I had an IV, and gave me a hard time about staying hydrated. While waiting for my ride, I went to the front desk and asked the gal behind the desk how much the ambulance ride would cost me. She looked at me and said, "About tree fiddy."

WELL IT WAS ABOUT THAT TIME I REALIZED SHE WASN'T A NURSE BUT AN 8 FOOT ALL CREATURE FROM THE PALEOLITHIC ERA. GOT DAMN LOCH NESS MONSTA TRYING TO GET MY TREE FIDDY. I ripped up the bill and walked out of the hospital.

Not sure where to go now. Has been my savior for.. years? Is there any way to buy monero besides pricy bitcoin cake wallet exchanges now in NYC?

Welp, looks like I am done with dissos forever. I have come to realize after a terrifying experience that I am just not able to do dissos anymore. Let this be a lesson to everyone else out there who is falling down the path of disso abuse/addiction.

Background:
I have been using/abusing dissos for over a decade, and have heavily used everything from DXM, to ketamine, to good ole MXE, to 3-meo-pcp, and everything in between. For most of my disso use I have had mostly positive experiences, magical holes that cannot be adequately described using the english language, flying through space and deep underground caverns and unlocking secrets to existence, as well as relief from depression and rumination. I have also had some not so great experiences, everything from scary holes, to mental breakdowns, to blackouts, to hospitalizations.

Over the past two years (and with FXE coming onto the disso market) my dissociative use accelerated. I have gone through literal ounces of FXE, using for days and weeks on end, to the point where my FXE tolerance became so obscene that it was no longer worth it to continue using. I had to do ridiculous amounts to hole (like close to a gram in one sitting) and the holes were no longer magical experiences, but fucked up nightmarish blackouts that lasted no longer than 10-15 minutes.

Instead of listening to the warning signs, I switched back to stronger PCP analogues (3-ho and 3-meo) to overpower my massive tolerance. This is where the real problems began. Whenever I would push the dosage into a medium-high dose territory, I would have strange manic blackouts. At the first the blackouts were relatively benign, I would move furniture around, climb on furniture, get naked, and throw stuff. Then they progressed to outright animalistic destruction. I would do a dose and immediately blackout, only to come to a few hours later, confused and naked in a destroyed room, wooden furniture literally ripped apart, 65 inch tvs destroyed beyond recognition, and much more.

The incident:
Again instead of listing the warning signs I continued. I tried switching back to things like ketamine and FXE but my tolerance was still pretty high. I then tried ordering something listed as "canket" thinking it would be similar or the same as the FXE I was used to, but it was not. It had the consistency of wet baking soda and burned like hell to snort, the high was dirty and gross and not fun. But being a disso addict I continued. I pushed the dosage again and boom, blackout. I came to in my bedroom, smoke and dust and the smell of burnt gunpowder in the air, my ears ringing and a pistol in a my hand. In a confusion I tried to piece together what had happened. I looked in the master bathroom and saw that my glass shower doors were completely shattered, glass everywhere. I realized I had shot my shower door with my 9 millimeter, in a residential neighborhood.

This was the final wake up call I needed, I realized if I don't stop now, I am going to end up killing myself or someone else.
Let this be a lesson to everyone on here, don't abuse dissos, listen to your body, if you are having bad reactions or losing control of your usage then just fucking quit before something happens that you can't take back.

TLDR: I kept abusing dissos until I would go into violent blackouts, culminating with me firing an actual gun off in my house in a disso blackout. Don't be like me.

Hey dark web users,

I wanted to share my experience because I feel like on this sub for some reason n00bs get treated like assholes.

I posted on here a while ago asking about reputable darkwen markets for purchasing "copypaper" and I received a bunch of DMs of "hey man, I got a direct hook up for you" and the like.

These are scams. Luckily, it didn't cost me that much, but I felt like I should share my story if I could spare anyone else who's new to this from losing even a penny from these vultures. I just wanted some recreation "copypaper" but it occurred to me that some of you on here might be gullible or maybe (and I won't tell) addicts. And you could end up giving these pricks all your cash.

I saved all my conversations with them. There are at least three that I know of. If you want to know who they are, I'll DM you. Not going to post it here because what the hell, i don't know them. It's an unknown.

And no. I don't have a reliable contact if you want 96 percent pure "copypaper." That's how I got into this mess in the first place.

Cheers!

I've recently published my first book Rock and Terror: A psychonomic look at the effects of psilocybin. The book is a user's guide to psychedelics presented through a narrative based on a trip I took in a hotel. The book explains everything that happened during the trip and tackles myths and facts about psychedelic use. It's a great read for anyone interested in drug science and a good laugh. The ebook is completely free so anyone who thinks it could help them can get it! I embedded a link to its barns and noble listing.

So l ended up getting some Hawalian babyrose seeds and I was thinking of doing the cold water extraction to make my own tabs but honestly, I am not for sure if that would even work would the blotter even soak enough up or how do I know how much is in each tab or how many seeds I should use in the cold water extract would I have better luck doing another kind of extraction for this?

In Germany nowadays it's really difficult to find 4-MMC. At best, there's low-quality 3-MMC available, otherwise, there's 3-CMC or even 2-MCC, all at a level where you find yourself sniffing every 15/30 minutes because you don't feel any high, just the need for taking more. So my question is: What is a good alternative to 4-MMC (and with a similar high and addiction level)?

It was for a hospital with a very strict no-tolerance policy policy. I had worked there last summer too with the same Student IT internship. I failed for cannabis, even with a three week withdrawal period, and now im jobless for the summer rn. I know this doesn’t value my worth and what I’ve accomplished, but it still feels pretty defeating. I mean I’m surprised people still really care about this stuff THAT much, it’s not like I can’t take care of myself

Just had to get that off my chest

I’ve had a history with Ritalin, Concerta, 2-MMC and 4F-MPH. Yesterday I felt like trying a new stimulant and I wanted to try out NEP.

Psychonaut says a heavy oral/insufflated dose is 60mg, but since I’m on the heavy side I figured I would need a higher dosage to get a nice effect. I insufflated 60mg a little under 24 hours ago and the initial effects were typical for me when taking stimulants: Energy, slight euphoria, wanting to be productive, but at the same time feeling slightly anxious and easily agitated. More social, talking way more, but also an increased heart rate.

And then the usual comedown. I had the most tolerable comedown after 2-MMC. The rest were pretty shit but okay to deal with, but NEP is another story.

Do you remember that butterfly effect in your stomach when you’re up for a large presentation and you’re feeling nervous? Or when you’re standing in line for a scary roller coaster ride? Ever since the comedown, that feeling hasn’t gone away. It made me unable to sleep last night, even after taking cbd oil, melatonin and benzos, so now I’m at work feeling like shit.

NEP clearly isn’t for me, but I don’t know what this feeling in my stomach is, and when it will pass. My current BPM is at a steady 70, so I assume that can’t be the issue.

Does anyone have tips/advice? Show no mercy, I’m a moron.